Positive FAIL

Hello, how is everyone doing?… hope you are all well.

It’s a little ironic that last week I post a blog telling you all of my prayers for my work and performance and on Monday, I woke with what can only be described as THE WORST head cold I have ever experienced. The sinus congestion was brutal, the intense headache behind my eyes had me in bed for almost two full days. I also managed to smit my youngest, Joshua, then had to watch him suffer for the following two days. So for anyone who has caught this particular strain of the cold, you have my most sincere sympathy.

However, bugs and germ are not what I’m talking about today. It actually is bit of a cheese ball analogy, but as I cringe a little telling you this story, I am certain it is the most obvious God-given lesson I can tell you all about this week, so bear with me because it actually ends up being quite powerful, and some serious questions came from it.

On Friday evening, I had my car MOT test; for those of you not from UK, it is simply a vehicle test to examine the car and declare it safe for road use. It looks at things like lights and windscreen, seatbelts, horn, looks at your wheels and brakes and a few other bits.

In preparation for this test, I did very little. I had got a crack on my windscreen a few weeks back and it had to be replaced and I got three new tyres an hour before the test. The guy in the tyre garage asked, do you want me to check your lights? When I asked how much extra it would be, he said not much. The reply I distinctively remember saying, was that it’s not worth failing the test over the lights, so go for it!!

Well, I’m guessing you probably guess by now where this is going. YES indeed I did FAIL the test and you guessed it… on the light alignment.

Now I promise you the next thirty minutes after my test can only be described as UGLY. The guy at the test centre hot footed it away from me because, he probably thought my look was going to kill him stone dead. (great way to testify, Terrence) All grace and coolness leaving me about the situation, and feeling an intense rage starting to build inside, I got in my car, slammed the door closed much harder than I needed to and zoomed off. I ranted and I raged to myself the whole way home, absoultly furious at the outcome of the test. The lovely guy who fitting my tyre probaly got cursed in and out of hell more than once. I was so cross, to be honest, I was abnormally cross at one stage. I had to stop and spoke out loud and said, RIGHT TERRI, that’s enough, pull it together, it could be a lot worse, it’s only a light alignment, probably a two minute job, not a three hundred pound part.

The area of dealing with disappointment and things not going my way, I had given a lot of attention in recent years. Even more so in recent months, I have with God’s help worked hard on how I process and react when things don’t go according to the Terri plan.

To the point, that I have little to no reaction at all sometimes besides an internal heart sigh, so when I say the rant that was going on was extreme, I really mean it. I had one of these explosions a few months ago, and I was so ashamed of my action, I promised I would get a real handle on this. But here I was again exploding, only this time, it wasn’t my feelings hurt. I knew my purse had got off lightly. Besides the inconvenience of the retest, things really were ok.

Asking myself what was causing this, why did I feel disappointed, I was really coming up with nothing other than the fact that God didn’t give me some divine favour in my test. I know, I also LOL to this. I’m semi joking, but half, not because that it is very much the temptation when things go wrong to assume God’s favour or presence has fallen away and you have been left to your own devices, or that the car machanic or tester are working in allegiance with the enemy.

I really do have an active imagination! Yes, an awareness of warfare is essential, but sometimes we can give the enemy way too much credit.

I found myself still muttering on about this stupid light alignment the next day, on and on I replayed this phrase light alignment, swimming around in my head, hating even the sound on my tongue. I prayed and quickly asked God why I was struggling to let go of the annoyance this caused. My reply came quickly.. why is alignment so important Terri? BOOM!!! Is it possible God allowed me to hang on to my irritation a little longer than necessary to minister to me on an area of my faith.. 100% possibility, felt like a very Jesus type thing to do!

He now had my attention and I was ready for the little heart training ahead, and it’s very simple really.

Why is light alignment so important ??

According to the car blog I googled, correct light alignment is very important, especially in the DARK winter nights, because if your lights are not aligned properly it can cause you to A) not see the road ahead properly, B) blind other road users, C) other road users and pedestrians may NOT be aware of your presence..

Why is it so important our lives align with God’s Heart?

A) We can’t see the road ahead properly, only when we are living connected to God and invested in reading his word and knowing his character, only then can we truly see the path he is laying out before us.

B) We can blind other road users… absolutely if our lives are not properly aligned with Christ, we can easily lead other Christians to veer off the path in the wrong direction, blind or confuse them with our ways, our contorted beliefs, thinking or behaviour.

C) We don’t make others aware of our presence. When we do not have our hearts aligned properly with God, the simple thing is people may not KNOW we are Christians. We don’t shine brightly to others and we won’t light the path that leads to Christ. And essentially, we could cause others to fail, simply by not being the light that they need in their life when in great need, or when things are darkest.

What causes Misalignment?

Bumps on the road, accidents, wear and tear, sudden sharp breaking.. sounds similar to misalignment in life with God. Every bump in the road, every time we have a mishap or fall short, sudden stoppages when things are not going according to OUR plan can all lead to to our Misalignment with God.

And as I was looking for someone to blame on Friday for me failing the MOT, it wasn’t the mechanic, or the guy at the test centre, it wasn’t even my brother who accidentally reversed into my bumper It was me, my responsibility to keep my car in check and keep it fit for road use.

How often I look for excuses and things to blame when my life with Christ is off course. It’s the circumstances, it’s the problems, or the people, or the church, or pastor, or a million other excuses. When the bottom line is.. the responsibility lies with me, and me alone, to keep my life aligned with the teaching of Christ. its my responibility to read the word and attented church and check in with my friends for accountability. to be honest and vunerable and listen to wise counsel when they lovingly correct me.

So there you go… Is it time for your spiritual MOT with God?

Become intimate with him in whatever you do, and he will lead you wherever you go.”
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭3:6‬ ‭TPT‬‬

But you must remain faithful to the things you have been taught. You know they are true, for you know you can trust those who taught you. You have been taught the holy Scriptures from childhood, and they have given you the wisdom to receive the salvation that comes by trusting in Christ Jesus. All Scripture is inspired by God and is useful to teach us what is true and to make us realize what is wrong in our lives. It corrects us when we are wrong and teaches us to do what is right. God uses it to prepare and equip his people to do every good work.”
‭‭2 Timothy‬ ‭3:14-17‬ ‭NLT‬‬