Who doesn’t love a wee loophole? A wee bend of the rules, a dance around the periphery of the law, not necessarily breaking it, but giving them a good old bending?
So the example I’m about to use is a minor offence (but note, even enough minor offences can fail you your driving test). In true Holy Spirit style, he used it to gently probe my heart, to remind me that if Is ok with doing this in the little things then I would be ok with the bigger stuff. So, here goes the cringy bit.
Honestly, I’m so over this pandemic, I’m so over masks, and queues, and hand sanitiser and security guards. I don’t say that undermining the seriousness of the people that have lost their lives, jobs or businesses, or any other life altering side effect. I have my personal opinion on the handling of all this, but I honestly don’t think it would be helpful for me to share on here, so we will move on.
So last week, I needed to grab some stuff at IKEA, so off I went on what’s now a forty-minute drive from my house. Only to see a large queue as I pulled into the carpark. I was surprised, I knew this was the case when the lockdown was first lifted but we were now weeks in. Patience is not one of my strongest characteristics, so my automatic response was to do a handbrake turn in the car park and get outta there (kidding I would never do that but only cus it would scare the you know what outta me). I fought the urge to leave and, begrudgingly, joined a queue where I stood in for the next forty minutes.
The way the queue was laid out was the people joining the queue were opposite the people next to get into the store. I was one person away from getting in when I spotted two old friends joining the end of the queue. I quickly waved and said loudly, oh hi, it’s a real pity my family can’t join me in IKEA, to which the security guard laughed but willing removed the barrier. My friend declined (awkward). It was my turn to go in and I waved and ran in. As I bounced with joy up the stairs, I felt the Holy Spirit niggle. At first, I brushed it off as awkwardness, the embarrassment of my friends not wanting to join me in my deceit. I justified it to the Holy Spirit, and myself as well. I wasn’t lying, we are all family in the kingdom. The niggle didn’t really leave for my whole time in IKEA, so the devil got the blame. (my classic denial- must be the devil) He is jumping all over this making me feel bad because I was being little dishonest and well he will get in on anything, so be gone in Jesus’ name. Now I’d be sweet!
Sadly, bargain corner didn’t have the perfect unit I had hoped for for my dining room (love bargain corner), so checked out and as I pushed my trolley to the car I was feeling a bit down. Oh well, I will get that unit at some stage, I’m sure it’s no big deal. But I knew my downcast spirit wasn’t about the unit. I packed the car, got in ready to drive..
Who else knows that God has some of his most serious discussions while you’re behind the wheel? No escape you see. lol
I shouted in my spirit what?
How do you like that done to you?
I hate it. Point taken, but it was such a little offence.
My response came so gently, I knew what was next.
““If you are faithful in little things, you will be faithful in large ones. But if you are dishonest in little things, you won’t be honest with greater responsibilities.”
Luke 16:10 NLT
I repented there in the car with an eyeroll, apologised for my minor offence and thanked God for his conviction, and prayed that he would never get bored of correcting me. The way home kind of turned into a prayer of surrender, me pouring out my heart telling God I hated it when he convicted me, but I also never what him to stop, and so on and so on; forty-minute drive felt like five.. So here is a tip for people who have long motorway journeys.. talk to God, time flies.
I know this doesn’t need much explanation other than God sees it all, even the minor, insignificant misdemeanours, and if you invite God into your heart you are giving him permission to prick your conscience, minor or major. God will use it all to work on you and your character.
“Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.”
Psalms 139:23 NLT
It’s up to you to say, ok God, I see what I did, help me not do that again. God’s conviction is never about condemnation, it’s about transformation. It’s about growing you closer and more like Jesus every day. It’s about you getting the best out of life here and now, not having to stick to a strict set of rules. It’s about living a life of fullness.
“A thief has only one thing in mind—he wants to steal, slaughter, and destroy. But I have come to give you everything in abundance, more than you expect —life in its fullness until you overflow!”
John 10:10 TPT