Sorry for the late blog this week. On Tuesday, I celebrated my thirty-ninth birthday. I’m like wow how did we get here?! I was giving a lot of thought too, how my life has looked up to now. Thinking over my mistakes and regrets and also to all I have achieved in this time.
I started thinking about what my life could have looked like if I could make some changes in the script of my life to date. There are some things I would do differently.
I would have persevered more, I would have studied better at school, I would have poured more into my areas of passion, I would have had more patience when learning new skills. I would have listened more to the advice of adults, I would have said NO to a lot more things and enlisted courage to help me say yes to others. I would have been more intentional about making wise decisions for my future. I would have tried to look past the moment and thought about the impact it would have on my future. I would have taken more time for those who were for me and less time chasing approval from those who didn’t care. I would have learnt the art of listening, I would have practised better self-control. I would worked hard at knowing my worth more.
See these changes are all consequences I’m currently living in, some of the consequences have rectified over time. Some I have to live with for the rest of my life. Some consequences are very obvious, like my lack of education and the fact that I currently live in a home, single with my children. Private consequences, like nights crying yourself to sleep because you’re so so lonely or missing out on another opportunity, that leads to thinking about every bad decision you ever made in your whole life, that lead to this one particular time in your life. And you know you have only got yourself to blame. Whether it’s true or not, that’s what we tell ourselves.
The silent consequence of the utter shame and regret of opportunities you missed. The people you hurt, and the ones you didn’t give any recognition to along the way.
Then there are circumstances beyond my control. Circumstances of how other people treated me due to their problems, or their insecurities, or their bad decisions. And these circumstances have left wounds and scars so deep, conditions and behaviour patterns it would take a physiologist years to navigate through. Circumstances like rejection, neglect, abuse.
These circumstances that happen in all our lives at some stage, that contribute towards how we see ourselves, how we value ourselves and our behaviour. Often these circumstances in our lives lead to the decisions or the consequences that we live to regret.
I’ll be honest here, I’ve questioned God’s motives a lot on both my circumstances and consequences in my life, why he allowed certain circumstances. I’ve questioned his love for me for allowing these circumstances in the first place.
Through different Godly encounters prayer and reading the Bible. I have learnt that God’s heart is always for me. I can’t explain it other than what God says and thinks about me, makes what everyone else says and thinks about me a lot less important. That makes the squeals of my consequences a lot quieter and the ache of my circumstances all that bit softer.
What I’ve been thinking about this week is how many people out there allow their circumstances and consequences to disqualify them from a relationship with Jesus.
How many people miss out on a relationship with Jesus because of this faulty belief system that if God truly loved them, these things wouldn’t happen.
How many people miss out because they have reached a certain age where they believe they are past the point of redemption because, like me, another birthday has rolled around and they have over analysed and written themselves off.
Today I want to remind people, no matter what your life has looked like up to this point, no matter what mistakes you have made, no matter how long your list of regrets is, no matter who has rejected you or caused a tsunami of painful consequences in your life, God is for you. His greatest desire is that you accept him and his offer to join the family, regardless of where your life has lead to this point. God Loves You.
He will not judge you on your past, he will not cause you any pain, he is for you and never against you. There is NOTHING you have done to disqualify from his love, and there is NOTHING you need to do to qualify you for his love. There are no age restrictions or preconditions; the only thing is to believe he sent his son to die on the cross, that he rose on the third day and bought us our salvation.
“So that everyone who believes in him will have eternal life. For this is how God loved the world: He gave his one and only Son, so that everyone who believes in him will not perish but have eternal life.”
John 3:15-16 NLT
My prayer is today if you are analysing your life, wondering who you are and how you got to this point if, for any reason you have decided you are past the point, Jesus can reach you. You are wrong! It’s never too late!